It can happen in the blink of an eye.
Gone. Not coming back.
As the days go by, slower than ever,
I struggle on. Pushing through.
The thought of knowing your not coming back hurts me so bad.
My eyes welling up, as tears run down my checks.
Its so different.
We had been through so much.
And had so much more to do, to go through together.
But your life ended short.
It's so not fair.
You were always there for me.
The one I came to for advice, my problems, help, to talk, hangout. Anything.
I always catch myself asking why? Why did it have to happen to you?
You were such an amazing person.
The one people looked up too. Always willing to help out.
The shaggy brown hair. Big green eyes. The smile that went from ear to ear.
Walking down the hall, thinking about everything.
My mind wont slow down.
I need you so bad.
Why cant I get over the fact that your gone, a part of me lost forever.
I just gotta remember that your in a better place,
and I WILL see you again.
Not a day goes by that I dont think about you.
That picture of us hanging in my locker, and in my room.
Its so hard. I miss you like crazy!
Your always on my mind..
Forever in my heart.
I want the best for you. In all you do. You lived such a great life.
I know you will succeed in all you do.
Once you set your heart and mind to it up there
You were like my brother.
That close.
I remember coming to all your games and meets like it was yesterday.
Walking, tears running down my face.
There's your locker.
As I walk past, I turn around, and just sit down.
All the flowers, pictures and posters.
I cant take this pain. I let it all out.
Sitting at your locker, down on my knees.
Everything is playing back. A slide show in my head.
Your gone. Not coming back.
I miss you like CRAZY.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
I will see you again. I promise..

And You Bring out the Best in Me

You know every detail about me,
even if its just the littlest things.
You know how to make me laugh,
even when I don't wanna smile.
You can wipe the tears away,
and make it all better.
The times I spend with you are endless.
So memorable. Priceless. Amazing.
You know what makes me mad, happy and sad.
When I'm with you, all cares are gone.
I can look you in the eyes,
and know you'll always be there.
You got my back, and I have yours.
We get through everything together.
Without you I'd be lost,
Not even close to complete.
Its the times that its dead silent,
and we catch a glimpse of each other and burst out laughing.
The times where we are on 2 hours of sleep,
And up at 4 in the morning, that are the best.
When I don't even have to say one word,
And you know somethings not quite right.
Its when we're road trippin' it, hair blowing in the wind,
And there's no looking back, that I know your my best.
All the late night talks, movie nights, shopping trips,
Tears shed, laughs had, stories told.
All the memories. Endless.
And oh, there are so many more.
Its when...
You know how to bring the best out in me..

Reppin' my main man Peterson's jersey tonight for the game. its a super good game. i hope we win. that would be so cool. this weekend was amazing. i went to Duluth for a hockey tourney. it was so fun. i went and visited the college. i wanna go there. but now i dont feel good. so im gunna go lay down and continue watching the game.

night (:

&Oh you make me smile..

And oh you make me smile.
Day in and day out.
Even when I'm down, the worst possible day.
You know how to brighten my day, make the sunshine bright.
It's the simplest things, like the (: in your text messages, that make me smile.
I even catch myself laughing out loud, all the cares gone.
Knowing you might be thinking about me, makes it all worth it.
Waiting will pay off.
The right one is out there.
This may not be the right one for me, but it sure seems like it.
Your so cute, sweet, sensitive, adorable and silly.
Its so much of a change, to be talking to you.
Someone that treats me right, and likes talking to me.
I look forward to each morning, with you being there.
And each night, my last thought of you.
Meeting you was the best thing that's happened in a while.
I've moved on from the other ones, now its all you.
Distance is the only thing in the way.
A hour a part.
Talking about when I can drive.
Wearing your football jersey, cheering you on.
Coming to kidnap you, and have a day to our self.
I lucked out on this one.
I'm a happy girl, and..

...oh you make me smile...

live
laugh
love

my favorite saying(:
i love life at the moment. everything is amazing.
couldnt ask for more!
and its a good saying for life, or to follow about living life.
(: <3

GO VIKES!!!
today i watched the playoff game at it was sweet! they played good. and i wore my new peterson jersey too (: it was a good day. sorry cowboys...seasons over! (:

As I close my eyes...

As I close my eyes,
I see everything I wish life could be.
To be with you.
Wake up to that big smile,
And go to bed with my heart filled with love and happiness.
I wish upon stars and dream like there's no tomorrow.
Hoping and praying.
But as hard as I try, it's not happening.

As I close my eyes,
Your right there next to me,
Giving all the support.
Tilting my head up to meet yours,
Looking me in the eyes.
Telling me its going to be okay.

As I close my eyes,
Our hands meet,
Interlaced. A perfect match.
As my head rests on your chest,
I hear every gentle beat of your heart.

As I close my eyes,
Your the right one for me,
Everything about you..about us, feels so right.
Laughing as we walk down the beach,
Those big brown eyes lost in my soul.

As my eyes open,
I realize the reality.
Its all a dream.
Everything I wish that could be between us.
But when the truth is I don't even know how you feel.
Its so hard to get anything out of you.

As I close my eyes,
I keep dreaming,
Hoping one day it will come true..

& from this moment on...

From this moment on...
I plan to be a better person,
A better me.
Respect others,
Listen to them.
Never give up,
Staying strong, with my held held high.
Push through every obstacle I can,
Saying I can do this.

From this moment on...
I wont let things get me down,
Just continue on like it never happened.
I wont let go,
Try and hold on, hang in there with all my might.
I wont let you be alone,
From this moment on.

From this moment on..
I will take everything as it comes,
Roll with the punches.
I wont run out of hope, even when it may be gone,
To dig down deeper and find that last bit.
I will take this world on,
Step by step, day by day.

And from this moment on...
Time will go by, days will continue on. I will get stronger, find that last bit of hope. I know I can carry on, when everything in this world seems to be against me and until the hurt is gone. I will try my hardest day in and day out. I wont give up.

& from this moment on...

once again its cutting it close to the dead line for blogging and im kinda stressing out. i have other homework that i gotta do and i just keep putting it off! uhg. so thins will be a quicky. break was so fun! today i had a christmas party with some friends and that was good! we dressed up and had a 3 course meal! (: it was a super good way to end my break. i love my friends so much. i hung out with my best friend ashley 90% of the break. that was amazing too. it was a good break and im NOT ready for school. worth you will be happy to know that after this im going to do homewrok for your class. so byee...(:

I dont know...

My mind going crazy,
the room going in circles. Dizzy.
I dont have any idea what to think,
or say. I cant talk.
I hope your okay.
A bad idea. A gut feeling.
I wanna cry so bad, to scream out and tell someone! Anyone...
I feel like my life is slowly going down hill.
I need to turn this around.
To start this year off right. It should be a new begininng.
A clean start.
To erase everything in the past. It doesnt matter now.
But this is killing me.
Something everyone hears about. And doesnt know what to think.
A tough situation.
I just wanna go curl up in a ball, under the nice warm blankets in my bed.
Relax girl, it's going to be okay!
Just breathe through it and calm down.
It happens to everyone...