One more thing to look forward too

As I see those girls walking down the isle,
And the boys meeting them half way,
It makes my mind wander.
To think about next year, and the years to come.
The early morning hair appointments,
And getting the fake nails put on the day before.
So much to plan,
To find the perfect dress,
Shoes, jewelry and all things to go with it.
The tux fitting,
Flowers being ordered.
Where to eat, and the day after plans.
The millions of pictures to be taken,
And the stress of finding a date.
Although it may be over whelming,
I can not wait for it.
My junior and senior prom.
A day to remember,
To never forget.
Spent with the ones you have a blast with,
And are close to your heart.
Only a year away,
365 days.
And one more thing to look forward too

The bonfires,
Late nights,
Lake clippin',
Sweet 16's,
Friends,
Cars,
Walks,
Days at the pool,
Boating,
Sun burn,
All the games,
Twins,
Vacations,
Sitting on the deck,
Hot tubbing,
&&
Picniks.

Sound familiar?
Those are the words of summer, the things we can do in 28 days.
Enjot ourselves, and be lazy.
See the ones we havent in so long, and let the days pass.
Be ourself, and let loose.
No cares, just typical teens.
Expected to never be home, and be beat the day after.
In the end though,
It will all be worth it.
Summer 2012 <3

That familiar feeling down in the stomache,
The one that makes you want to drop down and cry.
And its that same person that does it to you.
Maybe not a certain person, but gender.
Those boys.

The ones that say all the right words,
Pulling you in day after day,
More and more.

It's those that hold you for hours,
Then kiss you on the forehead.

The ones that take your hand,
But never let go.

The ones that look you in the eye,
Telling you how they feel about you.

Its the ones that tickle you and arnt afraid to be themselves,
In front of the ones they want to impress.

Its the ones that make you smile for days on end,
And say they will never hurt you.

But being the girls we are,
We dont listen.
And dont believe that.
We just keep on letting them make us smile,
Keep on tickling us,
And looking us in the eye, holding that endless stare.
We take their hand, so they cant let go.
And kiss them back.
We let them keep telling us all the right words,
And let them pull us in so much more.

Until we get hurt.
When that feeling comes back.
And you go down.
Thinking to yourself "why?"
As the heart is breaking, we get back up.
Because we can.
Because we're girls,
And we are strong.
We can take it,
And get right back up.

Ladies, dont let those dumb boys do that to you <3

The days continue on,
And go faster and faster.
High school is going by me like the speed of light.
Trying to capture as much as I can,
Taking everything as it comes.
Before you know it, we will be graduated,
Gone.
As Freshman year has passed,
And Sophomore year is coming to a close,
Junior year is just around the corner.
Every year its own,
With new opportunities and goals.
With the goals comes the challenges and obstacles.
We get more freedom each year,
And need to live up to the expectations that come along.
The pressure is on,
College prep is in the near future.
Its crazy to think that we are almost half way done with our high school career.
Its been great so far,
A one is a lifetime thing.
And trying to make the best of it.

You know he's a keeper when he knows something is wrong,
From seeing a status update on Facebook,
Then texts you.

Its when you get the messages in the morning,
That end up making your whole day.

When he calls you beautiful,
And you know he means it.

A keeper is one that isnt afraid to joke around with you,
For all to see.

&& Thats when you know you found a keeper.

Its the best thing in the world, to have someone there for you, day in and day out.
To have someone that cares for you.
And makes you laugh.
The feeling sends a shiver up your spine,
But you know its a good feeling.
When you wake up with butterflies in your tummy; from him.
Its the smile and the incredible personality that draws you in,
And makes you dig deeper into that specail someone.
Dont let go og them,
You will regret it.
Enjoy what you have

Feelings we cant keep in
Real life; absolutely amazing
Indescribable times
Endless memories
Needless to say; great people
Dont even get me started
Super lucky girl

New people and making new friends is the best thing ever. And I recently just made a new friend. She is so cool and sweet and a great girl. We talk pretty much every day and our conversations are indescribable. I love talking with her. We have many many many great plans already made for this summer. And it will be wonderful. Her and I are alike in so many ways. its crazy. I wish we became friends sooner. I cant wait for this summer and all the times ahead for her and I. Although we live in different towns, 20 minutes apart, we arnt going to let that get to us. It's been a great few weeks!

Feelin' like a million bucks on this gorgeous spring day,
Couldn't be in a better mood.

With not much to say,
As it shows with my mile wide smile.

Stepping out the door,
And to see the beautiful shore,

The wind catches my hair,
And sends a chill up my spine.

Letting loose and not giving a care,
Step by step, my toes sinking in.

Walking up and down the sand,
All the little pieces getting caught,

You came up behind me, to grab my hand,
But to never let go.

Looking out at the sun,
The rays beating so strong,

Makes me want to grab you and run,
Just the two of us. Forever.

Sitting down in the chair,
Mine has stripes and yours is solid,

As our eyes meet, and our thoughts share,
Life couldn't be better.

Enjoying the moment as we can,
'Cuz before you know it, it's gone.

Gettin' the tan,
But catch a glimpse of you.

Your skin glowing,
But you cant help it.

And your underwear showing,
I catch myself laughing, and shut my eyes.

Deeper and deeper,
Its so perfect.

Your a keeper,
No questions asked.

Time to go,
Packing up

Cuz the tides getting low,
And the sky fading away.

Going for the last walk,
I don't feel any more whole.

I'm zoned in as you talk,
Every word I'm falling more and more into you.

But as I see my house in the distance and turn to head back,
You stop me short.

Hold me tight, not cutting any slack,
And tell me goodbye.

The smile hasn't left my face,
Just a good way to end a perfect day.

I try not to pick up the pace,
But now I'm back home.

Climbing into bed,
Nothing feels real.

Shutting my eyes, as my thoughts are being shed.
As I dream about tomorrow and what it will bring...

The real me

As I let my mind wander, and the thoughts fly out of my head, it feels so good. To not care for once. To be myself, and not some girl that everyone wants me to be, who they think I am. Looking out the window, the sun shining so bright, the rays warming my body up and down. The breeze picks up, and sends a chill running though my spine. Step by step a new thought leaves my mind, and one less thing to worry about. My shoulders relax, and I can breathe. I can look myself in the eyes when I look at that water. Soul searching maybe. To find out more about myself. The wind blows my hair back off my face as I start to sit down. And sitting down on the grass by the slow running creek, puts me to sleep. As my eyes close and my mind wanders a little more, I cant help but thinking about life and everything about it. How I am the luckiest girl on this planet, to have a living and healthy family. To be healthy. To attend school. To have friends. To have people that love me and care about me. To have a place to live, and have clothes on my back. And that's not even close to half of it. Curled up on the ground, I feel like me, the true me. That other thought that crosses my mind and makes me think. The girl that I am proud to be. Its who I am. Accept me, don't change me. Love me, don't hate me. See me for who I am, not who you want me to be. It feels good to have my mind loose, blank. Everything gone. To just lay there relaxed and enjoying the beautiful spring day. The flowers blooming and tress getting all the leafs back. The grass becoming green and the blue skies floating by. Now I cant help but smile, from ear to ear. I don't want to get up, but with the day coming to and end and the blue skies becoming dark, I have no choice but to get up and take that walk back home. To walk past the calm lake, and see all the people with a smile on their face too, having a wonderful time. To meet all the other people walking, and talking with their friends. To see the cars drive by with the music blaring. To see the kids swinging at the playground as the birds chirp. To see the love birds hand in hand, walking to the perfect picnic spot. The driveway is just around the corner as I come back, and get a grasp on my thoughts and my mind. Such a wonderful day, couldn't have asked for more. I know whats important and have my life in control now. I found the inner me and who I am. I'm comin' home as the real me with a smile from ear to ear. And people will wonder. But never know...