Hmmm (:

This post is going to be really short! hah im really not in the mood to blog. Yeah i have a lot i could blog about but i'm just not in the mood. Life is great at the moment. I had my last Christmas today and family came over to our house. It was very fun!! (: in a way, I'm kinda glad its done because I had 5 Christmases. It gets to be a lot. All is well with family. No one really had to travel far which is good with weather and all. Everyone is fairly healthy. My grandma has no voice however and has a cough, but claims to feel fine. On Saturday I was up at 7 to go shopping with my anut and grandma. That was fun. I got my winterfest dress! I love it (: I've eaten so much in the last 4 days its crazy! Time to get back on track and work out. It's been a great break so far! I am a very happy girl! This week, who knows what it will bring. I know a lot of hanging out with friends! Thats for sure (: and im very excited for new years. Even though I'm not even sure what im doing..hah. Well I hope everyone is doing good and had a WONDERFUL Christmas!! And happy New Year to all as well!!

It only takes a minute...

Have you ever taken time to just stop. Stop and think about Christmas and everything about it? The true meaning, the warm feeling you get, time spent with family, all the yummy food? Have yourself a merry little christmas is one of my favorite Christmas songs. Each verse makes me think, and has a different and unique meaning. The first verse tells us to have light hearts and let all the troubles be gone. Its such a wonderful time of year to not be happy! How can you not be!? Let everything else be gone for your mind, and focus on the now. Take every moment you can get of this joyus holiday. The second verse also talks about troubles, and how they should be miles away. I'm going to say just the same thing as I did for the first one. Have a warm heart. Let all the Christmas spirit flow into you. Kick all the negitivity out. Then if you really wanna, after Chrtistmas is done, go chase all your bad feelings and bring them back into you. Its your choice but I think for a day or two we can be happy and enjoy ourselves. The third verse talks about the golden days and our friends. About the happy days, and the friends that are dear to us. For most, our families are our closest friends. They mean everything to us. I know for me, its such a blessing to get together with family. Its so cool to share all the special things with them, like going to church, then a big meal following. Now I think thats a golden day too. I think everyone should take a little time to think of those who dont have family left, or anywhere near home. Those who are alone on this amazing time of year. The soldiers being one. They are over fighting for OUR freedom while we are sitting here eating all this deliciuos food and opening the wonderful gifts. They are risking thier lives for us while we sit feeling sick because we ate so much. 5 minutes would be all it would take. Maybe just say a prayer for them, thier saftey. Or go buy a gift for them. Even writing them a letter. Its the littlest things that go the farthest. This Christmas especially, with the weather, I'm sure there were lots of people that sat alone. That has got to be hard. Take a minute just to think about that, and what if it were you? And the last verse. This says that throughout the years we will all be together, and have a merry little christmas. It really is a blessing to be together on the holidays. Its one of those things that can be easily taken forgranted. I cant stress enough, to just take a minute to think about this, Everything about this holiday! It will be worth it. I promise. I hope everyone has an AMAZING holiday, Merry Christmas to all and have a safe and happy New Year!!

Blessings to all--Rachel

Again...

Tummy turning. Heart racing, beating through my chest.
Mind all over the place, thinking every thought possible.
Emotions flowing up and down my body.
That one message can do SO much.
I have been thinking about you all day.
Why cant you just let me know whats going on? How you feel.
I wanna cry.
I don't know what to do.
I wish I could drive over and see you. Work this out.
Don't tell me that your going to be another one of those guys that just stops talking to me.
Another broken heart, another long road ahead.
More tears shed.
I cant imagine how this will affect me. How my life will be different.
Why do I always fall so hard?
It only hurts that much more.
We talked for so long.
I wanna go back to that first day. The first week.
I don't wanna loose you.
I love talking to you.
Even though people say different, I know you.
We can all be short, or mean sometimes.
But we gotta deal and move on.
I hope we can work this out. Together.
Don't leave me..
Don't put me through that again.
Hold my head up high once again.
My life motto. It never gets old. Just when things seem to be fine, I go back and get hurt and remind myself to just keep pushing on. Head held high.
Relax. It will work out. Give it time. Breathe and hope for the best.
Hopefully he will realize he needs you as much as you need him.
Just keep pushin on for now....

Most of all my blogs are really long. They are all things that I've written to show my feelings, to let it out. It helps me so much. This is going to be a shorter one. Right now my emotions are racing, my mind in every direction. I dont know what to think, or what to do. I made a mistake. I was looking on the internet and found this qoute and it fits so much.

"When you are in love and you get hurt, its like a cut...it will heal, but there will always be a scar..."
---Unknown

All I can think about right now is you, and how I hope things will get worked out. I dont know how to show or tell you that. You made a mark on me. Thats for sure...

Keep it coming

Stepping inside from the cold,
The place is full.
Running into the bathroom,
Hoping she didn't see me.
Wondering what will happen,
As the time goes by.
They run in, freaking out.
Saying they sneaked in through the car side to go door.
Still waiting,
Standing in the bathroom.
5, 10, 15 minutes pass by....
Creep around the corner,
Then jump and yell SURPRISE!

This is how the night started.
Alix's 16th birthday.
Get the text this afternoon, saying a party at Apple bees for Alix at 7. Get her gift, go home and get ready. Arrive at Apple bees, not really sure whats going on, or whats going to happen. The hummer pulls in, as I race to the bathroom. Call Summer and Sam to see where they are. Just chilling in the bathroom, not a big deal. They come running in 15 minutes later. Now all of us are standing there, clueless. Sage comes in, and we wait. She leaves and we're left alone. She comes back in to get us, as we are creeping around every corner, hiding. There she is. the birthday girl. SURPRISE!! and she is. Opening her presents, as the table is being set. The camera comes out for pictures. The laughter start and the good times begin. Sitting at the end of the long table, I feel like a little girl again, with my friends. We cant stop laugh, one thing after another. Eating limes and getting food shoved in my face. Feeding each other to shoving our faces. Good thing i went on the treadmill!! Its such a fun night. I love hanging out with my friends, my girls. We have so many good times together and its only the start. My stomach hurts from laughing SO much. I think about the future and what it holds. Not only for us but them as individuals...Summer Mariah. She is probably one of the funnest girls around. She makes me laugh every time. She is so sweet, nice, kind and caring. Samantha Kay. She is so caring! She wouldn't hurt a fly. This girl is always there for you. Alix Rachel. She is adorable! She makes me laugh too. She says the weirdest, cutest funnest things you will ever hear! All of these girls are so beautiful. Inside and out. I got so lucky to find friends like these!! And I have SO many more amazing friends in my life. I lucked out. Thanks girls!! GREAT night!! (: <3<3

The True Meaning

Christmas spirit fills the air,
Everyone in great care.

All the Christmas tunes throughout the house,
As the cat runs by with his toy mouse.

Time to go tree chop,
Lights, ornaments, angel on the very top.

Family pictures taking place,
All the cheesy smiles on your face.

The sweet smell of cookies flowing,
As the inner kid starts showing.

Day by day, the tree getting more full,
The I start to push and pull.

Looking for the present that says my name,
I think its a wonderful game!

The nativity scene goes up,
Is that baby Jesus in a cup?

Place him on the hay,
With not much more to say.

Stockings hung above the fire place,
What a beautiful space.

The snow falling down ever so light
making everything wonderfully bright.

So many kids outside playing,
Running, jumping and laying.

The true meaning beginning to show,
As i look through books, row by row.

They followed that bright star,
And they knew that weren't far.

Mary and Joseph found no luck,
But a stable with animals, they were stuck.

Jesus was born,
as the animals were worn.

Sitting on the hard wood floor,
Mary carried a child no more.

The truth be told,
and all the joys be hold.

A holiday so great,
No one could be late.

Enjoy this day
In every way.

Keep the true meaning in mind,
As Jesus is never left behind..

Its only the Begining! (:

I walk in, as the night begins.
Sitting down, hanging around.
Just having a good time with the squad.
The first of many team sleep overs.
The cameras coming out for pictures.
With the plates just sitting out, on the counter, we decide to do something a little bit crazy.
Cutting, coloring and out comes the glitter.
The finished product? A mask!
We decide to go kidnap one of the girls at work.
It's midnight.
Get there, find out she already left! Uh...
Pulling into the drive way. Back to the house.
Talk and be silly a little longer. Then finally crash.
Its 6:30. Leave by 6:50.
Running around to try and get ready, its chaos!
Get into uniform, hair up, ribbons in, make-up on.
I'm so nervous! Heart racing.
And we're off!
Get there, set stuff down and get our pillows out.
It's starting. I feel like I could be sick!
Looking down the row, we decide to start a cheer.
It goes good!
Keep cheering our Tiger wrestlers on!
Scanning the room, the only squad here.
Heart still racing, shacking hands, nerves still there.
I made a mistake. Just keep going. No one noticed!
It's done. The first match.
It went really well! I'm happy with myself.
It was super fun, exciting!
A great team, a great squad, a great day, a great experience...
A GREAT SEASON AHEAD! (:

Wish upon a star!

The thoughts wont leave me.
I know I'm over you.
Well, at least I thought I was. I thought I was 100% sure I was.
What is this telling me?
I cant go back to you. No.
But, uh. Why do I still catch myself thinking of you? Daydreaming of what could have been.
That curly brown hair. Cute smile.
WHY?! I cant. NO!
Stop.
Think of how he hurt you. All that pain. The tears. Long talks.
But then think of the times he called you, that adorable voice of his.
The babe and cutie. Seeing him for the first time. All those thoughts going through your mind.
All your friends say no, your mom says no.
But you say yes.
How you dream and wish that he will text you!
That he thinks about me. Only if its for a minute, once a month. Anything!
For him to realize what he did. To look at your pictures and think, Dang. I kinda miss her.
Anything. Just to show he knows I'm still here. Not loosing hope.
It will take so much for him to get me back. If he realizes at least..
Will I take him back?....
He hurt me so bad. What do I do?!
I wish...and I don't think It will come true.
Maybe I will try one of those tricks..wish upon a star. Wish at 11:11?
Who knows..
I wish...
..upon a star.